When I go out to a store I drive up in my SUV and people could say or think it's because I want to show off. Truth is I needed something that was easier to get the kids in and out of. Bending down into cars was not easy for my neck. When they see Kim (our nanny) with me and just assume I don't want to take care of my kids, when really it kills me to pay someone else to be a second mom to the people I hold dearest in my heart.
a lot of people think "I have it all together" or think "I have it all" even. lmao, if they even knew! when dh and I had our son I pretty much just focused on what needed to be done to make sure he was happy and healthy. I didn't have time to eat so I lost all my baby weight in 8 weeks with him. dh would cook dinner when he got home and we all would go to bed. things got easier but then we decided to try for our second baby, had a m/c and I was diagnosed with cancer! we got pregnant right away after the diagnosis and m/c had our daughter. I SAH and watched the 2 kids, a 14mo old and newborn. my son was put in a montessori school twice a week for socialization and because it was hard for me to take care of the 2 kids alone all week. as long as no one was hungry or stinky my job was done. that didn't include me of course, by the time my daughter was 4mo old I was down an extra 60lbs. In march of last year we got a nanny because I physically could not care for my 2 kids. we hired a nanny. I now get to watch another woman help raise my kids, what I wouldn't do to not have to pay someone for memories I would kill to make with my kids myself, while I sit on the sidelines.
from the outside I look like I have it altogether and I look like I have it all.
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